At first light (early this morning), I grabbed my cup of hot tea, and curled up on the sofa.
It was very quiet and peaceful, and still dark outside.
I like to turn on the Christmas trees and the lights on the mantle …. any chance I get, …..as they are so pretty and give off a special glow.
As I sat watching the flickering glow of the fire place, I held my sweet, little, white pom, Jesse on my lap.
We named him Jesse James because he is the little bandit that stole our hearts.
However, today Jesse is not quite himself.
You see the last few days, he has been having seizures.
These are the kind where he cries out and gets all stiff as he hobbles towards me as I rush to meet him and lift him up into my arms.
It is heart breaking.
The vet says there is really nothing I can do other than make him as comfortable as I can.
He has had seizures before, but few and far between….I believe the last one was about 6-8 months ago, lasted about 30 seconds and then he jumped around as good as new as if nothing ever happened.
The last few days have been different.
He has had several of these spasm episodes…and although he has never slept in our bed, I made an exception and tucked him close to me.
There is a pill that the vet gave me, but it is more for relaxing him and not preventative.
So this morning, I sat there in my robe, holding him close as he looked up at me with those big brown eyes.
So trusting and expecting me to solve all his issues as I have done so many times in his life.
He is 12 years old…and still looks like a new puppy, and he weighs all of 5 pounds.
I don’t know what tomorrow will bring for him. I have been in constant communication with the vet.
Right now, I am able to soothe, pet and “talk him through” these seizures.
But I do know that if he gets so that he can not “come” out of these episodes, there will have to be decisions made that I don’t want to even discuss.
For right now,… for today,….. I hold him, talking softly to him and praying the prayer that I know God always answers.
The prayer?… “God’s Will Be Done”
You see, God cares about everything that concerns us, and one might say there are people all over the world that need prayer….and one would be right.
But God is not limited by boundaries.
The Bible tells us in Luke 12: 6,7,……
….”Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God, and even the very hairs of your head are all numbered …..
How special is His Love for us.
Have a great day!
Kari, it is heart breaking. I do know about seizures. Our little Dante had seizures and the same kind Jesse experiences. Our vet put him on Phenobarbital 15 MG. Since he has been on it, there are NO more seizures. It does work! Luminal® or Barbita® to control the amount and severity of seizures. This drug works by decreasing and stabilizing neuron activity in the brain. Good luck and I hope your vet prescribes this for your sweet little Jesse. Hugs
thanks Linda, I appreciate your telling me that because we had to go back to the vet yesterday and she did prescribe Phenobarbital…1/4 tablet in the a.m. and 1/4 tablet in p.m….when she explained the side effects I was concerned BUT I am hearing from more people that it works. So we are starting with the meds. He also has an ear infection, which I don’t understand how he got as he is only outside long enough to do his business and it is his own area and I am very protective of him around animals. But who knows?? I will let you know how he does on the meds. thank you again. Hugs
Rita C. says
Oh, Kari, my heart breaks for you. It’s been 12 yrs – yes 12 – since our little chocolate poodle had seizures while I was preparing for my big family Christmas dinner. I will never, ever forget that Christmas. Big hugs for you and your Jesse James.
Thank you Rita. 🙁
Everyday Living says
Oh the pain of seeing your fur baby in old age. I have been there a few times and it hurts really bad. Sending love to you and comfort along with Jesse❤️
thank you Pam. 🙁
Tammy in Albuquerque says
thank you Tammy
Oh sweetheart, if I could I would take you into my arms and take away this sadness.
You are doing everything you can and then some. Please know that in your heart.
Your comfort is exactly what Jesse needs right now. And know … I am sending lots of love and comfort to you. Hugs my sweet friend.
thank you so much my dear friend.
Linda Cunha says
I know that you are hugging him close and I will be praying for you both.
I so appreciate you, Linda. God Bless you also.
Sandy K Park says
Kari, my heart goes out to you. Been in your place way to many time. Prayers for you and Jesse. May God comfort him.
These little fur babies steal our hearts don’t they? thank you for your prayers.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and Jesse. Treasure the gift of each day with your dear Jesse.
Jane Thebo says
Hugs and good thoughts are with you. So hard being a responsible pet parent some times.❤️
thanks Jane…hugs dear friend